Ok to those who care to read my blog ,I know i havent written anyting original in weeks. The basic fact is, soo much goes on at the moment that I either can't write it all, or; iam so caught up in processing that i just don't feel like writing. However iam adding a video on this particular blog. This is something that is a part of what is going on inside me. A real struggle. A fact that is making me feel caught. This video is related to that only. The details about what iam really going through may come out after 15 may. Meanwhile i hope that the readers enjoy this small video clip.